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Screw the last post. Haha. Shao Jun would probably strangle me if she ever reads this...





























































































I'm not gonna quit ballet YET! HAHAHA.































































































































Okay, I know I'm being stupid and lame. But I'm just so bored rotting at home during this wonderful holiday. It's Chinese New Year and for once, I don't even feel like celebrating. I don't feel like there's anything special. Boo. I miss my cousins.

Oh, Happy Chinese New Year everyone! =)

-Nic-

Piece of Cake?

I survived the first week of school. And so the routine goes on again.



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27th January 2011




The day I dread. The day that I wish will never arrive. So I've decided. Hopefully, a decision that I will never regret. Due to the increasing amount of my tuition classes, and the few important examinations I have to take this year (ATCL, theory grade 8 AND the most important one, SPM), I have decided to stop ballet. And this time, for real. No more "aiya, I think I don't want to stop already la. I can't let go. So, haha. I'm continuing my ballet lessons!" No. Yes, I can't let go. That much is true. But I have to, or else I might fail my papers. It's been like, what? About 14 years? Yeah. I started dancing since I was about 3. So, 2010 was my last concert. My last chance dancing infront of a crowd of people that I don't even know. Audience. I know I've always said that I wanted to quit, but I continued cause it was always "oh, just one more grade, then I'll quit for good". Not anymore. I'm going to miss all of this. I'm going to miss dancing with the people who's seen me make a fool out of myself, who's watched me grow up like family, who's been there with me through thick and thin, learning all those steps in foreign terms, the people who's seen me dancing so clumsily like a hippo but never made fun of me. I'm going to miss my second family.

I wouldn't call myself a ballerina, cause I don't think I've reached that standard. I've never even performed onstage in my pointe shoes, a dream I've always dreamed, and will continue to dream. So, as a ballet dancer, I've certainly learnt alot. In my many years of learning ballet, I've become a stronger person, and more disciplined. When I'm onstage, I'll always look confident although there's really a hurricane and a tornadoe inside of me, killing all the butterflies in my stomach thus making me more nervous than nervous. But, that's on the inside. I'm always happy to perform. Ballet made me love the stage. I still remember how teacher would find ways to make us understand what we're supposed to do and not do eg. poisonous skirts so that we have a nice brabarre. The teachers, I'll definitely miss them.

They say ballet is for the weaklings, it's not a sport. Football's a sport. Well, I'd say if you can't survive in ballet, you can't survive in football. But if you survive in ballet, football's just a piece of cake. Get what I mean? No? Try ballet then, you'll see.

27th January 2011, my last day as a ballet dancer. I'll certainly miss all of it. I don't want to regret.

-Nic-

2011

It's 2011 baybeh!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!

Yeah, that's kinda what everyone's shouting about. It's 2011. So, Happy New Year to the dear homo sapiens/alien/monster/dinosaur/ant/chair who actually still drops by my blog to read my craps. Thank you. And may the year be an awesome one.

2011. I'm in what would most probably (hopefully) be my senior year. Yay!NOT. Being a Form 5 means only one thing. SPM. What's SPM? SPM is the passport that every Malaysian who studies in a government school needs in order to pursue a higher education. If you don't take your SPM, you can forget about having any college/university taking you in. Stressful, but still a torturing phase that every student has to go through.

Anyway, celebrated new year's eve at Mabel's. Had bbq and loads of fun. Said goodbye to 2010 while watching the fireworks. I guess 2010 was a great year. Overall, everything was great. I've met new friends, improved in certain aspects, and recorded with my friends. Oh, did I mention 2010 was also the year I freaking failed for the first time? Yeah. Pfft.

So, Monday was the first day of school. Everything was great until it started raining monkeys and dinosaurs. I was stuck in a massive human jam since I forgotten my umbrella that day. It was horrible. And the fact that I looked like some little girl who had to go to the little girls room because of the way I was clenching my skirt made things worse (and hilarious). Thank goodness mum came with umbrellas like a super hero and I finally got home. My shoes were completely soaked, my uniform was still wet despite my efforts to keep it dry cause I don't like getting wet in my uniform. It's mad uncomfortable. Ugh. Other than that, school was great. I think. I have really nice teacher this year, and hopefully, I won't turn them into monsters by missing all their homework again.

This year, I'm not going to make a whole list of resolutions again cause they don't really work. I only made things worse. One of my resolutions last year was to get full attendance in school. Instead, I missed a whole lot of classes due to many stupid reasons. The number of days I didn't go to school should be more than 100 including the holidays. That's bad. Real BAD. So, this year, I'm just gonna ignore the whole resolution thing.

-Nic-

ah choo

This morning reminds me of a small town called Forks. Sounds familiar? Yeah, the whole Twilight story was based in Forks. The sky was dark and gloomy, and it drizzled from time to time. Couldn't stop sneezing the whole day since I didn't get my usual dose of vitamin D as there wasn't enough sunshine. I was cold, inside and out. During my piano lesson, a normal piece that takes about 15 minutes to finish took me more than 20 minutes instead. Why? Cause I couldn't stop sneezing. I think I sneezed more than 10 times in one page. Seriously. It was non-stop 'ah choo ah choo ah choo' all the way. Sighs. I need more sunlight.

-Nic-

Monkeys and Elephants

It's raining almost everyday here. I love the wind, but not the rain. The feeling of the wind blowing through the hair is just wonderful, but having your hair soaked with rain after you just pampered it with shampoo, conditioner and a nice blow-dry is NOT wonderful. I wanted to go and check out some stuff but couldn't cause it was raining monkeys and elephants. Hmph.

Tomorrow's the last day of school. I guess I really have to go this time cause I missed almost the whole week AND I need to collect my textbooks. Crap.

-Nic-

haha

Finals are over. Thank goodness. I think I need to start doing something with my life. I'm so lifeless. I'm just lazing around the whole day. Pfft.

Anyway, nothing. Yeah. Sorry bout that. Oh, my throat hurts btw. Haha.

-Nic-

What's Next?

Tomorrow's the frist day of my finals and I'm still sitting here instead of studying. I guess I'd really deserve it if I failed, right? Sighs. Anyway, Adam Lambert's concert. I heard that it was amazing. Sold out. The best. But, when I picked up the newspaper the next day, I was really, unhappy? I dont know. Disappointed? Frustrated? Embarrassed? I still can't find a word to describe how I felt. Feel.

We're supposed to be an open-minded country, right? Then, why in the world did you protest during the concert? That's just really humiliating. What do you think you'll get from protesting about him performing in our country? Nothing! Or was your aim to tarnish the country's image? Well, congrats then. Cause that's exactly what you've done. Good job. Adam Lambert performing here in our country is something we should be proud and happy about. Not...whatever you people think. Sure, he's gay. So what? What's wrong with being gay? FYI, he did not choose to be one. That's his nature. Protesting just because he's gay is just so unfair. Hello? I bet there are hundreds and thousands of gays and lesbos in our country. What are you gonna do, huh? Cast them out of the country. Discriminate them? What happened to all your moral values? Chances of non-gay people becoming gay just because some celebrity who's a gay comes to perform are one in a million. How in the country going to improve if we all think just like you? We'll be a laughing stock to the world. How many concerts have we banned? And why? Because they wear leotards, mini skirts, they're gay, their music is not suitable? You wanna know something funny? While watching a local production the other day, I saw those women wearing just a sarong and I was like "Wa, can wear like that one meh?" Mum looked at me and told me that back in those days, that was exactly what the kampung people wear. A sarong wrapped around them. Just like how I wrap myself with my towel after I take a bath. So, what happened then? You tell me.

You protest against Adam Lambert for performing in the country. Do you know how much we'll lose if he never comes again? If nobody wants to perform here again because of that incident?



-Malaysia, truly Asia? FAIL.
Why? I'll tell you why. Have you ever thought, that by having a celeb like Lambert performing in our country, tourist would come and visit us? I know that his die hard fans will definitely do anything just to watch him perform. Lambert didn't stop at every country in Asia for his tour. So, the fans who are in the countries that are not included in his tour will come to the countries who are included in his tour. OUR COUNTRY. And, after or before the concert, maybe those fans, who will also be tourists, will have a look-see around the country. See the beauty of the earth. What does that mean? Our tourism sector will improve la! But, what happened? Smart people think they're so smart, go and protest. So, how? Less world class performers want to come here. Then what will happened? Figure it out.

-Less income for the country.
Why? When those fans (tourists) come to our country, they usually stay here for a while, right? That means we get more income. How? Obviously, when foreigners come, they need a place to stay. They need food and drinks. They buy souvenirs. They visit our malls. They visit the tourist spots. They are spending money in our country. What does that mean? It means WE GET MORE MONEY. But, now? Too bad.

-The country's image? GONE.
Let's see. First, there was all the racial problems which caused a huge stir. Hopefully it's settled now. Then, there was the shooting of the 9 pedigree dogs who were innocent, WHICH, until now, I still can't forgive those people. Yeah, I'm talking bout you BASTARDS. 6 Rottweilers, 2 Dalmations and a Bulldog. DEAD. Just like that. And why? Because those brainless bastards killed them. You say that they were aggresive? Bullshit. Even a child can tell that dalmations are not aggresive. You say that they attacked animals from the farm? They were starving for goodness sake! What? You expect them to go to the neighbour, knock on the door and say "Hey, I'm from the farm next door. My owners killed someone and they were taken away by the cops. So, nobody's been feeding us. Mind giving some food?" Is that what you think the poor dogs should have done? I bet you would have done the same thing if you were in that condition. The only difference is that you'll probably barbeque the meat before eating because your pea-sized brain told you so. Those dogs had every reason to be aggresive. They were starving, and their teritory was being intruded by strangers. They were just fending for themselves. They just wanted food. They just wanted to survive. But, what happened? Idiots who probably dont even have brains the size of a pea SHOT THEM DEAD. I'm disgusted. Sometimes, when I think about this, I feel ashamed. Why? I can't tell you here. Ask me personally if you really don't know. But you should probably know what I'm saying. So, the poor dogs problem caused an international outrage. Then, what happens next? They protest against gay people performing here. Yeah. What a way to promote the country's image. A huge round of applause.

I wonder what's next.

There's so much more that I want to type, but, unfortunately, I have to go and study. I still haven't finished memorising my moral values (which I doubt will be of any use since the people I thought I respect don't even possess a quarter of what we learnt from those values in their lives, thus making me lose all my respect for them) for the exam. Good luck to everyone out there.

-Nic-