Whadaya know...

...school wasn't that bad after all. Maybe it's cause there's only 4 subjects today, but still, I'm happy.

I think I really need to do some meditation now. Get rid of all the negative stuff and fill myself with more positive thoughts and energy. All those chi and stuff. Really. I've been so negative and vulgar these days I even surprise myself. Perhaps I should try some yoga and relaxation stretches thingi at home. Yeah, I might just do that. I can imagine myself already sitting in that lotus position and humming ohm...ohm...ohm... for about 30 minutes each day. Yeah. Maybe I'll do that. Haha.

-Nic-

Heartless beasts.

I really really really hate it when people are being cruel. Just open any paper these days and you'll see that there's another abandoned baby somewhere. Each time I read these, I really feel like grabbing those idiots by the collar and shout right in their face. I mean, what's wrong with your head? That's a freaking life you're throwing for goodness sake! That baby could grow up to be a prodigy, a good leader, a person who might save thousands of lives and you're just throwing it away like that? What if that baby was you, what would your world be like? NOTHING. You know why? CAUSE YOU'RE ALREADY DEAD. You don't have a chance at all you grow up and see the world thanks to your irresponsible parent(s). You had a chance to live, don't you think those babies deserve just the same?

You think that by throwing the baby away, all your problems are solved. Why, did you grow up consuming nothing but shit and piss? Helloo? Technology and trace everything right back to you, idiot. But it's too late by then because most of the babies are probably dead already. You're really that scared of a little baby? Afraid that people will scorn at the sight of you and spit at you when you're crossing the road? Tell you what, people WILL do that when they find out that you're one of those idiots who threw the baby away. KILLER. Ashamed? Embarassed? Why? If you're so worried about all these up to the point where you'd throw a life away, why in the world did you do it anyway? It's as easy as pie. No sex, no baby. And if you really can't control your sexual desires, ever heard of contraceptive pills? Diaphragm? Or the one everyone knows, condom? Or if you're that lazy to use one of those and you don't want a baby, go to the doctor and ask them to operate you. You can then go around screwing everyone without worrying that you'll get pregnant/get someone pregnant.

Stupid killer. You're destroying a life. Fuck you.

Videos of fuckers who think that they're so damn fucking smart by abusing a poor animal and fucking recording it are circulating around the net. I'm sorry for my language but I'm just really pissed off. I hate it when people are cruel to animals. You think animals have no feelings? You think animals don't have a life? Well, FUCK YOU. Why, does throwing puppies into the river, or kicking a poor defenseless puppy, putting fireworks into it's mouth and lighting it up, hitting it with poles, putting the pole on it's neck and jumping on it, or stepping on a kitten with stilettos, or chaining a dog until it bleeds..etc, does it all seem that fun to you? How about we turn it the other way round, how do you like it then you heartless bastard. These animals you tortured, killed, are not animals. You're the animal. Scratch that. You're not even an animal because animals have more compassion and feelings. I don't even know if the word beast describes you. Fuck you.




School's staring tomorrow. Now I miss the holidays. I don't think I can even wake up in time let alone hop out of bed and drag myself to school. Heck, I haven't even done my homework. Screw it.

-Nic-

wtf.?!

http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=bb4_1283184704



WHAT THE FUCK. Seriously, I hope this bitch gets run over and dragged for 400m by a 1000 tonne truck, abandoned by the side of a road where nobody gives a damn thought about her until some psycho freak sex maniac passes by and rapes her before he tortures her with a barbed wire pole and then throws her into the river just like what she did to those pups.

Dear puppies, rest in peace.


I know I'll probably go to hell for cursing someone so badly. But, honestly, I hate it when people are cruel to animals. There's a whole lot more I'd like to say but then, I'd rather keep it to myself. Don't want people to think I'm some crazy freak. Still, I hate her. HATE her. God forgive me.

-Nic-

Just Dance

Nothing much to blog about my life cause mine is a boring one. But, these videos are definitely NOT boring. Enjoy.










Amazing, ain't it?

-Nic-

Random

I was really bored, and I was thinking if I should go to school tomorrow cause I still have that stupid migraine and crap. So, I decided to modify Hilary Duff's 'Little Voice' into something cause I was really really REALLY bored. So, yeah. Let me know what you think. =)

Little Voice - Nic's version

I don't know why but I keep on

Asking all these questions though I am through

Thinking if I should go to school

Or should I stay at home and read some books

I keep hearing this voice in my head

And it's saying go ahead.

A little voice in my head tells me that I should skip

Tomorrows lessons in school cause I ain't gonna keep

My books and pack my school bag, I just gave it a kick

A little voice in my head tells me that I should stay home and sleep.

Each time I think about the flight of

Stairs I have to climb to get to my class

The teachers and lectures and the homeworks

They make me wanna stay home, watch War of the Worlds

And the thought of the weather so hot

Makes me not wanna go at all.

A little voice in my head tells me that I should skip

Tomorrows lessons in school cause I ain't gonna keep

My books and pack my school bag, I just gave it a kick

A little voice in my head tells me that I should stay home and sleep.

But still it's kinda cool, cause I've got friends in school

Who makes me laugh until I cry

But I still don't know why.

A little voice, a little voice.

A little voice in my head tells me that I should skip

Tomorrows lessons in school cause I ain't gonna keep

My books and pack my school bag, I just gave it a kick

A little voice in my head tells me that I should stay home and sleep.

A little voice, A little voice.

So, how is it? Let me know, kay? BIG HUGS *smiles*

-Nic-

It's a f..f..

..freakishly cold evening.

At times like this, all I want to do is just go home, take a hot shower, slip into my warm jammies and curl up in bed. But, no. I had to go for piano lessons. And you have no idea how cold it was in the car. Should have brought my sweater along, but I was like 'oh, nevermind. i wont freeze to death' Truth is, if I stayed in there for the whole night, you guys would probably find my frozen corpse rotting in there. I mean, seriously. I knew it would be cold, but not THAT cold. Ish. Each time I go out to the living room, I'll turn and hide in the study, cause it's warm here. I didn't even care that the rendang was burning hot and that I burnt my tongue. I didn't even realise that my cup was too hot to hold cause my hands were ice cold.

So, after dinner I went up to take a shower. I didn't realise that the water temperature was too high until I saw the steam on the mirror and my pinkish-red skin. I scalded myself. How smart. But then, the moment I turn the shower off, I'll turn it on again cause it's just so cold. Burning hot water seemed like a good idea to me then. Still, I had to get out and get dressed or else I'll get old lady fingers and toes. Finally, nothing like a warm and cozy old jammie. I felt so much more better after that though my nose still felt like ice to me.

Why must it be so cold at night? Can't it be like that when we're all in school where it's mad hot and everyone's sweating like a cow? Anyway, while keeping the clothes in the cold wind, I suddenly thought: how do those people sleep through the night without their clothes on? I mean, those who sleep alone. For those who sleep with their lovers they won't freeze to death cause there's heat transfer between their bodies and they'll eventually reach thermal equilibrium (see? I paid attention during physics *grins*) and have a warm night. But, there are those who sleep alone, stark naked. I wonder how they do it. Sometimes even my jammies and blanket aren't enough to keep me warm, I have to wear my sweater or something else. Them? There's nothing besides the blanket. Won't they like shiver through the night or sneeze non-stop or something? Really makes me wonder. One day, if I happen to know anyone like that, I'll definitely ask. Or maybe if YOU're one of them and you're reading this right now, mind telling me? I would really appreciate it. Or maybe I'll learn that in physics someday.

Blisters blisters blisters. My poor lil' toes. =(

-Nic-

Lately

A few things happened these days. Some expected, and some, not so expected.

I really thought that yesterday night would be my last lesson. But, last minute changes. I'm gonna continue, at least til the end of intermediate. Took me such a long time to think things over. I really was going to stop. But, it's hard to let go of something that I've been doing since before I could really speak. It's been like, 13-14 years? Yeah. I'm not ready to let go yet. And, I don't want to go back there someday and have some random girl standing next to me who says that she's gonna quit and I'll be like "WHY? DONT QUIT!" and the girl will be like "why?" and I'll be like "You'll regret. Trust me, cause I do". Nope. I don't want that to ever happen. No way. So, yeah. I ain't gonna stop. *smiles*

Anyway, I'm gonna tone down a lil in choir next year. Tone down as in no more competitions, extra practices and pres thingi. Why?

~ I made a deal with my mum. Yes, sacrifices.
~ SPM
~ I'm not sure if I can completely commit myself next year.

Oh, and I passed my my add maths with a B. Yays.

More things are gonna happen. It's just a matter of time. Oh wells, we'll just wait and see.

-Nic-